love is the new black

Awe, look at them boys... I wish I could keep them... especially Mr. John...

Love Is Real

The Maine = love

Okay, so, i MIGHT be a little obsessed...

tumblr!

I got a tumblr!!!!!

you should follow it!!!!

Click Here!

Just a few things I found that I would like to share...

I feel like a dork...

but I've been playing neopets lately. (The hospital is boring and the only thing to do is read or play on the computer.) But I started a new account. anyway... I have three pets...

John Oh, IntoYourArms and Baby Drac xD

Anyway... I'm super bored... THAT'S how bored lol

Hey there fine people

I've just written a song and I'd like to share the rough draft with you! xD

Click Here to see it!

Yawn

Hey there, friendlies. New update.

Dracula is opening in 2 WEEKS. I'm excited about that. It will be fun (although the seniors being gone really sucks.)

Moving on, I do not have a man and I'm perfectly fine with that.

Next, my Dad's in the hospital. Don't worry, he's alright, just has to get surgery on tuesday and he'll be in for a little while after that. So we'll see how that goes.

And another thing, I found a new show called Raising Hope that I find hilarious. It's awesome. Also, the new season of Community is on now :)

THEN November 9th is my BIRTHDAY!!! so it'll be two weeks for that too! xD I'm excited!!!

Nothing else for now! Later!

Party with John Oh!

Haha, I want this shirt. It's wonderful, right? Because I WANT to party way, way, WAY too hard with John Oh. Yeah, yeah. I really do. He's a sexy man. I'm just sayin'.

Feeling the Music

I love this picture. First of all... this is John O'Callaghan. He is so sexy its not even funny and second, I agree with it entirely. The music makes it and if they don't like it, fuck them.

"I love my music and I love what I do, so if you don't like it, well baby, fuck you." ;)

You and I Deserve Nothing

"It feels really good to wake up every morning knowing that I do not deserve the life I have. I do not deserve the food I eat, the friends I have, the health of my body, and the experiences I have. I Deserve Nothing.

People too often feel entitled to things. You feel like you “deserve” the world. You don’t. No one does. The sounds horribly depressing, but if you know me by now, you know I don’t look at things from the negative side.

The upside to deserving nothing is you always feel like you are given everything! How good does a perfect gift feel on your birthday or at Christmas? How great is a brand new iPhone or a car. It’s amazing! Now imagine the gift of being able to live your life every day. Not all of you believe in God, and I’m not telling any of you that you have to. But I am telling you that living every day that you don’t deserve it makes everyday feel that much better!

So, I like to wake up knowing I don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve this band. I don’t deserve these friends. I don’t deserve this brain or this body. None of it is mine. Every day it is a gift to me.

I know that this philosophy sounds a little crazy and pretty hippy-ish, but that’s ok because it makes me happy. Don’t you want to be happier?"

-Dave Place

When It's Over Now

**NOTE: Replace the hers with him for my thoughts**

[Verse 1]

I'm over her I know

But I've been thinking of her

And I've lost all control

I'm like a train off the rails

Stop this game we're playing

And break up our schrades

[Chorus]

Because when it's over now

We're just broken hearted star-crossed lovers

When it's over now

Well I'd still be here thinking of her

You're the only one I'll ever know

When it's over now

[Verse 2]

I'm driving by your house

It's by habit that I take the long way home

I'm an addict at heart

Stop this game we play

And break up our schrade

[Chorus]

Because when it's over now

We're just broken hearted star-crossed lovers

When it's over now

Well I'd still be here thinking of her

You're the only one I'll ever know

When it's over now

[Verse 3]

Hate me, all of me

I'm a broken song so sing along and smile

Take me, all of me

And have your way with your lonely games

This one I'll never win

Because when it's over now

[Chorus]

Because when it's over now

We're just broken hearted star-crossed lovers

When it's over now

Well I'd still be here thinking of her

You're the only one I'll ever know

When it's over now

I'm over her I know

-Phone Calls From Home 'When It's Over Now'

So lately I've been reading a Manga called Fruits Basket. I love it! I'm only on the 4th book, but its really good so far. My favorite character though, has been Kyo. He's very angry and stuff, but I always love the troubled character. Like Yo from High School Debut (the very first Manga I ever read, and my favorite only second to Lovely Complex). Anyway, point is, I find him very stunning and so I'm going to share him with you!

That's Kyo-kun! >

Youtube Updates

Hey there, Blogger World. For all of you that follow my youtube activity (I know I haven't uploaded in forever, but I AM trying to get better... anyway, I uploaded yesterday! So click here to check out the video.

Also, one more thing about youtube... Me and my friend Sam are starting a vlogging channel, just for funsies, so if you want to check that out, because he's a pretty fun guy too! Click Here.

And another thing is my twitter account, if any of you want to follow me on twitter, go right ahead: http://twitter.com/kelliwa

Thanks guys, love you all!
Kelli-wa

Happy Beasts!

These little guys are super cute!!! My friend Sarah makes them and you should totally look at them. Click Here for the site. :)

Mega beasts are about 11 inches tall.

The regular sized beasts range from 5-7 inches tall

Mini Beasts are 2 inches tall (and made out of felt.)

I just thought they were super cute and wanted to share them!

Mesmerized

-Crank-

Mesmerized

by the come and go,

the sad drift and flow

of lives in painful transition

I sat, waiting for an ending.

The clinic was gated,

walled and secure,

but nothing felt safe

nothing felt sane.

Why do they make you

wait so long, trembling

in the shadow of

fear and remorse?

I wept, as my sisters

wept at what might

have been, had we turned

in another direction.

And then, midst waves of

heartache, I felt a flutter

in my belly, no more than the

whisper of an eyelash.

Later, my doctor and my

mom would tell me it

was much too early

to feel a fetus move.

Whatever it was, maybe gas,

maybe God, I took it as

a plea from the life growing

viable inside me.

I would not abort my baby.

Nor give it away. I

would carry it proudly, and when

it entered this world,

I would be the perfect mother.

I could only hope

it wasn't Bree, materializing

inside of me.

New Playlist :D

I've got a new playlist up and it has tons of awesome songs and bands on it. Cute is What We Aim For, The Ready Set, Hey Monday, Hellogoodbye, and The Summer set, plus tons more! Anyway, you should check it out. It has a lot of great music in it. There's 25 songs on it. Also you should check out the music video for "Love Like Woe" by The Ready Set. Its a really good video! :D That's all I have to say for today...

bye!

Being a Girl Sucks

Just in case any male reading this cares:
BEING A GIRL SUCKS!!!

I am cramping so bad right now and I don't know how to fix it. I still have two more hours before I can take any more meds. Gah! It hurts so bad! It only comes in waves too, so excuse me while I cringe. I'm supposed to be at school right now but I hurt so bad when the waves happen that I have to hunch over. So it basically sucks. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be fine by tomorrow, but it still sucks.

In OTHER News...

The play is soon. As in five days soon. Four days if you want to count the Teacher Preview as an actual show. That means only three dress rehearsals until we open and the pit is still horrible. Let's hope they shape up! And wish the cast luck!!!

P.S.

I really want to see American Idiot on Broadway. Its like Mamma Mia except its Green Day instead of ABBA. :)

Pour Me Out

Wake up in the morning

It's not so bad

I can taste you on my lips

And it makes me sad

There's a part of me that just wants you back

You're the one thing I want that I never did have

That I never did have, oh noo

Fill me up

Steam me up

Hear me shout

Tip me over and pour me out

Pour me out

On the concrete next to your feet

Do I have to cry

Can you hear me

Oh just to be

With you

Oh gosh this bed

It feels so cold

My head was led by the lies you told

But to this day my heart you stole

In a bind left behind waiting for your call

Fill me up

Steam me up

Hear me shout

Tip me over and pour me out

Pour me out

On the concrete next to your feet

Do I have to cry

Can you hear me

Oh just to be

With you

Find me outside sitting in the rain

On the curb in pain my heart is breaking

You look at me holding on to a dream that filled me long ago,

But I'm still waiting.

I'm still holding on

Pour me out

On the concrete next to your feet

Do I have to cry

Can you hear me

Oh just to be

Pour me out

On the concrete next to your feet

Do I have to cry

Can you hear me

Can you hear me

Do I have to cry

Can you hear me

Oh just to be, just to be with you

Oh just to be with you

Ohhh just to be with you

"Pour Me Out" by He is We

UPDATEEEEE!

Okay, so I haven't actually UPDATED in a while, its been mostly lyrics and poems and I apologize for that, but I've been busy with the musical which is going wonderfully, in case you were wondering :)

Anyway a few things that I update more than this...

my TWITTER!!!

yeah, ^^you should click that :P

really, my twitter is just things that i think are funny and so i post them, but sometimes its about my life and what i'm up to xD

and also my youtube account which i updated tonight actually with a small stupid video, but most of these don't actually matter either... they're just fun.

RunRunRadio

Click ^^ That

Anyway, just for kicks, i'm going to show you a few pictures i took at the church's blues & barbeque thing (which made us over $2000 for the hope central ministry. whoo!)

Click Here for the pictures :)

Oh, and for the record that Breathe Carolina concert WAS epic. it was literally one of the best concerts i've ever been to, and maybe it was just the environment, but i loved it no matter what. it was AWESOME. This sounds really gross and slightly whorish, but when I got home, I had at least twenty different people's sweat on me and i STILL felt great. It was just FUN.

Last

"You stole an ounce of me but i've still got the rest
and if it's any consolation
you were good but not the best
you threw it all away
and you watched it fall away
but it was not as hard to say as you think

tell me what you mean
tell me anything
tell me everything you never could
so what can we hope for?
you're bleeding everywhere so tell me everything,
everything you never thought you would
it's your last chance to say goodnight


it was a tale grown so tall
and penned in makeup on the glass
it was a hollow compromise
it was a hollow compromise
you threw it all away and you watched it fall away
but it was not
it was not as worth the time as you think


and maybe once but maybe twice
maybe not at all this time
cause i've had all that i can take
and all the choices that we make are our last"


-Last by The Spin Cycle

"Every time I lose someone I lose a part of myself.
Some people are worth remembering.
Ive found happiness in the activity i love the most.
I don't quite know what's most important to me anymore.
There's nothing i would change about my life anymore.
But there use to be a lot.
I'm not the same person I once was.
I haven't always made the right decisions.
Living well is the best revenge.
There's a perfect time for everything.
I've forgotten what love is.
I think everyone should find their own answers.
If you need someone to talk to I'm a great listener.
Everyone needs a hero."
-Daniel Strider

(I know these don't make much sense, but read each line by itself and you should be fine.)

Response to a Review...

American Idol Review
^click there for video.

First off, I would just like to say that Queen, Kiss and Led Zepplin's style isn't coming back anytime soon because it never really left. It just warped itself into the style of rock and roll we have today. That's how music works, so don't tell me you don't understand this.

Next, a lot of people on american idol do things with thier music:
1. Kelly Clarkson-4 CDs, many tours
2. Carrie Underwood-3 CDs, 5 tours
3. Jordin Sparks-2 CDs, 2 EPs, 2 tours, 3 opening acts
4. David Cook-2 CDs, 2 tours

Just so you know, the point of American Idol isn't to be a song writer, its all about voice, so really, you're being kind of stupid, chick. Also, I'd like to see you get on stage in front of millions of people and viewers watching on television and sing a song, not to mention WELL. Singing is a musical talent, just so you know. And I'll bet a lot of the people on American Idol do in fact play some sort of instrument, which is more than you can probably say for yourself.

Adam Lambert has a CD, by the way, in case you haven't noticed. You realize that nearly everything you're saying in this video can be proven wrong. The only reason anyone can go into a Karoake bar and 'blow people's minds' is because most people in Karoake bars are a little tipsy and will clap at anything. Okay, so what I want to know is if you are a famous musician, because I've never heard of you, so how would you know who's respected in the music industry. You don't, because you don't know what you're talking about.

Just because you don't hear it on the radio doesn't mean its not good. I don't even listen to most the crap that's on the radio, so I don't really see where you're coming from. You also said that you sing like crap, so do yourself a favor, and don't talk about something that you have no idea about. I don't even watch American Idol, but I know that if you try it you're not losing respect in the music world. There are different routes to take, and if you don't like a few, then you can get over it.

By the way, that shirt isn't flattering... You should probably not wear it... Ever...

You've Got the Guy

You’ve Got the Guy

Alright, Princess,
I’m gonna say this once.
So you’d better listen closely,
And don’t make a fuss.
I don’t really get what you see in yourself,
But I’m not putting up with your shit.
You can call me ugly all you want,
But I know its not true,
Whatever you see in yourself,
Or whatever he sees in you,
I don’t really get it.
So just chill a little, Princess,
Because last time I checked you were winning.

RAWR!

Alright, so I'm hanging out with Taby, right now. We're just messing around on the computers and stuff, nothing of importance, but I'm having fun. Either way it's better than sitting on my butt and watching Star Trek... again... lol, just kidding, I LOVE Star Trek, so I don't even care.

Okay, there's a Breathe Carolina concert at Boney June's that I want to go to on February 27. It's going to be epic, so therefore, I have to go. I'm gonna see if Whittney wants to go with me since we weren't allowed to go to the one up near Chicago. Something about how it isn't a good plan for two seventeen year old girls to go on a trip to Chicago just to see seven awesome bands for under twenty bucks. Whatever. It would have been totally boss.

Also, I've been pretty obsessed with the Ninja Turtles lately. I want this wallet that I saw at Spencer's Gifts that has them on it. It was awesome.

Another thing... I'm pretty addicted to pocky and I really want some. Banana flavor, but they didn't have it at the Asian Market last time I went.